I wasn’t sure how this blog was going to end, in fact I’ve been trying to figure it out for quite a while. I’ve learned so much and want to live differently … but to be honest it’s been hard not to fall back into the same rhythms of life. Drop-off, work, homework, dinner and do it all over again … my mind keeps thinking “Is this really how my life is suppose to go? Am I destined for more purpose, a higher calling … something that puts a spring in my step? I love my husband and my kids, I know there is so much purpose in this life of mine but could there be something else that I am suppose to do?” Answer … I have no idea, just living each and every day with the goal of thanking God for all the details he has allowed me to experience. And above all else I am doing my best to slow down, take time for people and love this life I’ve been blessed with.
One quick update, Tuesday I went in for my first MRI. Good news, the doctor is happy with how it looked. There are two unknown spots that he is going to keep an eye on … but I got the thumbs up for another 3 months. Praise God! I know this journey is not over and as I continue to seek the Lord and increase my trust and reach out to others I know this has all happened for a reason. Now what the reason is … I’m not sure, but I’m anxiously awaiting to find out and maybe, just maybe it will be my higher calling!
If this is my last post, (not sure but perhaps) then I would like to share what I have learned the most. It will be a little different because instead of reading you get to listen. I had the extreme delight of being a seminar speaker at The Awaken Conference at my church two weeks after my surgery. It was a youth conference so I’m really encouraging students but I also had you all in mind. I hope you enjoy learning a bit more about me and my story … to tell you the truth, it was hard to share a lot of my past trials but also freeing to be so brutally honest with my struggles and how God can use them for good.
The audio clip is on vimeo.com hope you enjoy and I’d love to hear your responses, answer any questions you may have and please reach out to me if you need someone to walk through a trial with you! I love you all, thank you for being so amazing through my journey of trust!